I made a discovery today. I found the most illogical creation ever. It is so chaotic that not one person has ever found the solution to it (or at least no one who lived to tell the tale).
It is commenly known as relationships. The give and take of the heart. Emotions.
It reminds me of this dream I have sometimes; a never ending struggle to get somewhere, you can't stop, but each step is like stabbing yourself with a sweet needle. It turns and turns and turns, the ####. Then finally just before I reach my goal I collapse, spent beyond my limits.
I usually wake up around 5 am. So also relationships seem to be this uphill struggle towards someplace better. I never reach the top... yet I never quite fall to the bottom. Some part inside screams at me to try again, do it better, don't give up.
To get back to relationships, 'scientific study' (my opinion) shows that the biggest problem is a misinterpretation/disconnection of interaction.
Recent happenings show my theory to be true. My best friends turn on each other and 'plukked' because one of them can't express himself good enough for the other. (Like always I put myself in the middle... stupid?)
Still don't know if it'll work out.
Still I would never survive this world without my heart. Relationships, our pain and pleasure...
Another page from high school
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